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一场欢喜一场空
school started!must say i'm still handling it ok at least for most of the stuff...made quite a few nice friends too!but oh well back here agn cuz hmm...i dunno,dont want to emo at facebook...dont want to emo at my twitter?so depressing to look back at them...but oh well i'm always unlucky in this sort of things...so its kinda '我习惯了,虽然有一点心酸但还是别乱来'

为什么你的海阔天空里没有属于我的一片云?

dont really wanna repeat the same mistake...everyday i'm reminding myself i should not cross the line...yea i look into the mirror and tell myself that everyday 'hz,mai luan lai'

sometimes it works sometimes it doesnt...really i really hope it can just stay the way it is now...but sometimes i will '犯贱'...haiz...be more determined!

oh well...enuff of all this stuff...cant wait for my year end bbq!!!
esp the concert...10 years of friendship is really something and really i treasure it alot even if sometimes i dont show or say it...hope we can have 10 years and more 10 years after this decade!

Saturday, November 19
12:06 AM

hope
yup...back here agn just so becuz i dunno who can i talk to...sad eh?not exactly but maybe its cuz i dunno how to open my mouth or just pai seh about it...but yea i'm here in this secluded corner agn...where no one would peek but i just need to yea let go...

felt kind of happy and a lil bit excited that i actually stumbled across her fb...well its really quite lucky but well...still...thought its all gone...didnt see her for like what 7 months?well was sleeping on fri or sat...and she sent me a msg saying she changed her number...oh well...and from there on yea...led me to her fb...now its like shd i add her?or just everyday go see...but maciam stalker leh...haiz...and she seemed to have changed her work place...so yea...cant go back old place to find her...and cant like last time asked where she's working now...not that friend with the staff there...

oh yea...haiz...nvm shall slowly find out everything that i need to know and stuff...
jiayou (:

Monday, July 25
11:32 PM

i'm back...after a year...
woah...cant believe that i'm actually back to blogger...after more than a year...this time as a civilian though...so much happened in a year and i dont know where and how to begin...

anw...glad that i let go of certain someone,but hell there's a new person and its impossible agn...why am i always so unlucky ):

oh well...at least ord...but looking for uni is kind sian agn...man...oh well...work agn ):

Tuesday, January 4
11:03 PM

something i found meaningful on my fren's fb post
11:02 PM

the answer
yea...been in camp for i lost count of the days already...i've really been thinking those days...think think think...i got my answer...like yea...my answer...
but i dunno bout yours...juz feel like giving up...you say A,but ur actions shows B...man...i dunno...
maybe i shd not even step in in the 1st place...now i'm in too deep...too deep
i dunno but i'm tired...maybe just let me sink...

Thursday, January 28
3:19 PM

wierd
i met you...
we stood under the rain...
we helped each other back to the shelter...
and now you wanna go back to the showers...
how can i bear to see this...how can i?
you never know the pain when you say those things to me
there are still promises you havent fulfilled
now what?

perhaps its oso a good time to let me think...gal plz chill and calm down...
长痛不如短痛...dun torture yourself anymore...it hurts me too
i still hope to see you on that date eh...plz

Tuesday, January 19
8:34 AM

secrets
12:41 AM