his beliefs...his aims...his words...his thoughts

一场欢喜一场空

2011-11-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

school started!must say i'm still handling it ok at least for most of the stuff...made quite a few nice friends too!but oh well back here agn cuz hmm...i dunno,dont want to emo at facebook...dont want to emo at my twitter?so depressing to look back at them...but oh well i'm always unlucky in this sort of things...so its kinda '我习惯了,虽然有一点心酸但还是别乱来'

为什么你的海阔天空里没有属于我的一片云?

dont really wanna repeat the same mistake...everyday i'm reminding myself i should not cross the line...yea i look into the mirror and tell myself that everyday 'hz,mai luan lai'

sometimes it works sometimes it doesnt...really i really hope it can just stay the way it is now...but sometimes i will '犯贱'...haiz...be more determined!

oh well...enuff of all this stuff...cant wait for my year end bbq!!!
esp the concert...10 years of friendship is really something and really i treasure it alot even if sometimes i dont show or say it...hope we can have 10 years and more 10 years after this decade!

hope

2011-07-25T23:32:00.003+08:00

yup...back here agn just so becuz i dunno who can i talk to...sad eh?not exactly but maybe its cuz i dunno how to open my mouth or just pai seh about it...but yea i'm here in this secluded corner agn...where no one would peek but i just need to yea let go...

felt kind of happy and a lil bit excited that i actually stumbled across her fb...well its really quite lucky but well...still...thought its all gone...didnt see her for like what 7 months?well was sleeping on fri or sat...and she sent me a msg saying she changed her number...oh well...and from there on yea...led me to her fb...now its like shd i add her?or just everyday go see...but maciam stalker leh...haiz...and she seemed to have changed her work place...so yea...cant go back old place to find her...and cant like last time asked where she's working now...not that friend with the staff there...

oh yea...haiz...nvm shall slowly find out everything that i need to know and stuff...
jiayou (:

i'm back...after a year...

2011-01-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

woah...cant believe that i'm actually back to blogger...after more than a year...this time as a civilian though...so much happened in a year and i dont know where and how to begin...

anw...glad that i let go of certain someone,but hell there's a new person and its impossible agn...why am i always so unlucky ):

oh well...at least ord...but looking for uni is kind sian agn...man...oh well...work agn ):

something i found meaningful on my fren's fb post

2011-01-04T23:02:00.001+08:00

如果有一天你想哭，打电话给我，我不会承诺能让你笑，但会陪你一起哭，如果有一天你想逃离，不要害怕，打电话给我，我不会承诺让你停下來，但我会和你一起跑；如果有一天你不想听任何人说话，打电话给我，我会一直很安静地陪伴你。但如果有一天你打给我，没有回应的话，请你立刻來见我，也许我需要你陪伴。

hope she can see it someday?

the answer

2010-01-28T15:19:00.002+08:00

yea...been in camp for i lost count of the days already...i've really been thinking those days...think think think...i got my answer...like yea...my answer...
but i dunno bout yours...juz feel like giving up...you say A,but ur actions shows B...man...i dunno...
maybe i shd not even step in in the 1st place...now i'm in too deep...too deep
i dunno but i'm tired...maybe just let me sink...

wierd

2010-01-19T08:34:00.002+08:00

i met you...
we stood under the rain...
we helped each other back to the shelter...
and now you wanna go back to the showers...
how can i bear to see this...how can i?
you never know the pain when you say those things to me
there are still promises you havent fulfilled
now what?

perhaps its oso a good time to let me think...gal plz chill and calm down...
长痛不如短痛...dun torture yourself anymore...it hurts me too
i still hope to see you on that date eh...plz

secrets

2010-01-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

yup...juz typed a whole chunk but decided not to post...juz save it as draft...dun wanna let anyone see...definitely not her...yup...
IA coming up...jiayou...need a strong will to get thru dat shit...i'm sorry bout the cigs issue...yea...

really hope to see you on dat date...got loads of things i wanna tell you in person...yea..

badbye 2009

2009-12-31T17:02:00.003+08:00

it has come and now its going...like finally...high time to end it i guess
nth went well but all didnt go too bad either...juz hope to achieve more things and hmm only have 2 solid aims and both already have a dateline le (: smartie me!

no.1 dun be single on my 21st birthday
no.2 quit smoking altogether the DAY after my 21st bday...not even a social smoker anymore...yea

hmm...control my temper and dun flare at those lovely creatures in my shift?lol...how can i not flare at them when they are so idiotic and its as if they are saying 'come and scold me...i need one badly'
and how i can i resist the temptation to scold...LOL...damn really feel like scolding some damn bitch...
com'on...he's your OWN brother...he's your OWN son...flesh and blood...and you all are treating him like grass...and u guys have the check to tell him he's an accident...feels kinda sad and pissed cuz i'm bout the same situation as him too?

age gap btwn my sis and i :10
their's is 9...but its totally diff...BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH...
ok...i cant resist the temptation to scold agn...gwah

k...hope 2010 is a great year...ciao fellas

changes

2009-12-21T21:55:00.004+08:00

(great...wadeva i typed juz now disappeared due to some fucking error...am i ranting too much here even blogger dun allow me to post?)

no motivation le...so fuck it...
hate some guys even more now...
stop giving excuses when you are picked upon...
there muz be a reason...so face it and not fuck it...
get smart...he talked too much...and you are doing quite the same...
there's a negative eg there yet you think too highly of urself and hey you are in DANGER...i'm no nice guy to shout HEY WATCH IT FOOL...
you fall your business...i'm an asshole
GOH caused this change in me...so to you guys i will give back what you guys gif me...fair and square...flat too
getting back the old habit...dreads...

yea got dragged in by a fren...K...got my 1st rows'...made frens...learnt stuff and grew up...but seeing u...abit disappointed la...gwah...
anyway i guess this is it la...goodbye GOH...i hope...

tried the 3x 2.4km thing juz now...which is madness?managed twice but the 3rd once my legs simply juz could not take it anymore...perhaps its becuz of my near empty stomach too ):
all the talk bout competing who lose more weight by feb is seriously getting in me...eat lose move more...no macs/kfc and those stuff till march!muz win this...anyway i'm seriously gaining weight oso la...so yea...

hmm...probby it looks liddat next year? :

fucked up effort...but at least i tried...LOL...brace myself for the longest and greatest lecture by lao uncle kok...things cant be achieved with juz my mouth...
say what you mean...mean what you say...
do what you say...and its time to date the play...

lost in his own thoughts

2009-12-13T21:13:00.002+08:00

loads happened in the past month...juz simply did not have the patience to blog them out...rather i rumbled them out complaining to frens in camp and outside...but still i'm not really feeling good yet...gwah

coughed super badly...even had fever for one night in the midst of rehearsals and the 2 weeks really made me see the ugliest sight of human beings...selfishness was high in the air...bastardsm(is there even such a word?) is all around...and many negative feeling is all around...
well it juz further makes me wanna quit...former good frens but now seen their f'up side...selfish is the main cause of the trouble...not our exhuastion...guess we are weak mentally...'lam nuah' too much back then...fucking hell...

juz 4 more hours very diff meh?sometimes i really wonder whats happening to all of us...wonderswonders...

fuck this shit as its seriously bringing out the worse in me too...
i'm sorry to whoever i fucked but i'm not sorry to one particular fella i fucked...yea...

premature ageing

2009-11-05T20:30:00.002+08:00

guess i'm ageing prematurely...
my ankle's taking too long a time to recover...
my back hurts like nuts and i need pain killer to keep it in control...
after sitting for too long i tried standing all...but my back was completely weak and poof my butt dropped my down on the chair and i was feeling dizzy...safe me man...
guess its all the reluctance to go back to GOH all slowly sipping out of my body eh?
has not jog for erm 4 days?
due to the bad back and partly was in camp the past 3...
damn sucky to see that every time i'm nearing full recovery something just struck me...

ankle sprained more than 2 months ago...
2 to 3 weeks latr fever struck...fitness dropped like shit...
just when i'm nearing and even clocked a personal best 2.4km my back gave way...
live's really a roller coaster...hope i recover fast la...if not i cant take IPPT!
gwah...

daily living is kinda boring?well perhaps i shd hit the club someday soon lyk payday?
do some rain dance or wadeva?
damn...drinking session wif mok better come soon...maybe on payday?
and shihui's having her exam guess its a meetup after her exam?
A's coming up for the pple too...jiayou

back still hurts a tiny bit even as it type here...gosh...booking in latr...
cya all

trying to let you know that i'm better of on my own...
i tried to be perfect but nothing was working

i want out...i will figure a way...

2009-10-31T16:32:00.003+08:00

yup...reach my decision after much thinking...i swore i tot alot about this matter...
the more i think...the more i realise and while i was thinking i am seeing more things and feeling more things too...that yea...there's something blocking between hz and them...hz just does not want to go back...hz has place his soul elsewhere...not among the goh fellas'

hz's sorry...but yea...
goh(20 guys...kevin ord...left 19
lets not count the 2 specs...mathan and vignesh...left 17
minus hz...16 peeps left)
unhappy wif more than half of them...greatness...its like SHINGS!
not the boomZz feeling like before...

of cuz there are still certain sore feelings w/in hz due to some things...but there are much much much more things that really made him wanted to quit...ass
of cuz...being labelled as 'goh' i pride myself to do things well and good,to be neat and tidy...
but hell...most of them are not...there goes...they are messy...dirty...while all the negative terms you can think of...in summary...they are 'la sup'
strong word...but yea...anyhow throw things on FLOOR and cupboard...treat no.1 wif no pride...hey...its the smartest thing you are ever gonna wear at least in ur nsf time...and hey...its kinda sacred yea?just lyk safti's parade ground...
man...beside discipline only...most oso dun have?HOW?
sianess

the members of Al'volution among us are too bodering me on the verge snapping at times...and each at diff times...

AL 1 aka Triple A...well selfish to the max or over the limit...most fucked up person to walk the grounds of sbab ever?thats according to me...but well...i'm not the only person that feels this way...drags...

AL 2 aka Alvin 'the Wank' Orton...the most idiotic person ever to step foot on earth...the dumbest person i ever met...i swear...never learns...cant differentiate good from bad...dunno who's really trying to be a fren or he's just eating him up...man...the list really goes on...LONG...
nonetheless he's irritating and talks at the long time and of cuz...the tau pok of the year merely shuts him up for a lil while...damn

AL 3 aka Altista...man...beyond description...so much so loves for himself...claims to have a good figure...but man...i'd rather be fat and bah bah than to have his figure...and u noe hz's hate being FAT...insensitive bastard who always thinks he noes it all...juz like triple A...but man...both of them noe NUTS...and hz would never forget the way he comes to hz's fb and comment the 'fire of joy' during ndp...
if he's so great he can try STANDING IN FRONT and do it...its LOUD...like BOOMZ you noe?so if u dunno my pain...dun come in and gif ur worthless comments...

and woots...dats only 3 of them...lets move on to the B's...
B1...MR BANANA...man...a bastard selfcentered banana...out of the rule out of the hook...man...why is he even here?
and...hmm...his face is shingz!(LOL..8Days!)
can u imagine...wtf he tot hz was...fancy taking the rifle attached wif bayonet to jab his back of the knee...wtf...

B2...LOUD and is pushy and idiotic...man...forget it...not a kind i would want to be close...a bastard of his kind...but not so bad as B1

B3...mr greedy...lost faith in him...fancy behaving like a kid when he's the oldest among us all...damn...

B4...my oh my...why's he even here?screwed himself of the front row spot...and the moving eyeballs certainly confirms his trait: KAYPOH!
damn...oso dumb enuff to ask a person wif a kinda screwed up ankle to play lan...lan is more impt to frens...eat fast leave some behind just for lan games...how fren a fren is that man?kinda a freak of humankind too...

but lets just remind myself i'm not all perfect too (:
man...there's more man...but lets just stop here...i guess its goodbye to them:

the final days...which turned sour and sore...sadly
i want out...lets just find a path out...somehow...

mysteries that can never be solved

2009-10-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

alot...lyk ALVOLUTION...man...its late...gonna book in soon...
dismount come back then blog...

had a great time at butter fact last night...and i was abit gone...i guess...

a long forgotten post...

2009-09-15T13:08:00.003+08:00

hmm...this post is kinda latr by a month++?
ndp was great!so great that i wont be able to forget those memories and the journey...its really a great journey...how would i forget the actual city march?with pple by the side of the road cheering us on and what not...guess great's the only word i can say eh?
camera flashes...cheers...appluase...marching music...could'nt get more of that anywhere else...
watching the fireworks with 'majulah singapura'...guess its the most magnificent fireworks ever...perhpas too the highest pnt of my nsf liability...well guess i'm affected by the propaganda...but why not?i love sg!
perhaps ndp really changed me abit here and there?guess i will discover slowly...

hahaha...things went erm...downhill after ndp...i guess...sprained my right ankle and hitting the ligament in the midst...all thx to play soccer...great eh?
6 months to 1 year for full power to return...shit...cant play heavy sports...and since i sprain my ankle i guess my hopes of doing a 20km by end of this year is all dashed...the bone petruding out still HURTS even after more than a month...but i guess dats all thx to a soccer game 1 week back...
and woah how great izzit to see all your cool frens walking normally leaving you behind just becuz they are rushing off to erm play lan games?to think B even asked me along...seriously felt lyk pissing in his face and tell him i walk so slow...i scared i cant catch up wif u pple...but hell being nice i rejected B politely
oh yea...was damn du lan dat i took cab home
fell sick soon...gwah...poor me eh?
after dat its all work work work and perhaps some fun in between lyk going to chang k and stuff wif roy and sebas...well celebrated dan's pop...lol...POP only wad...but i think we shd really celebrate seba's ORD...haha...well mine's still LONG

and yea!there was a sqn cohesion on 4th sept...and we play soccer at east coast...joined the winning team...well thx to peng...it good to finally play soccer after twisting my ankle for about a month...thru out i was afraid to shoot lest i aggravate the injury...somehow
but hell...we survived all the way to the finals...and i forgot about not shooting...i guess after dat my foot felt BAD...keeping it silent of cuz...

went to drink at co's fren's pub...i drank LOTS man...beer after a game of soccer...wad a good way to be cohesed
was able to remain sober and see all kinds of funny shit dat happened...shan't say wad happened here...hahaha...too funny to be mentioned and my head might be chopped off if seen by any of those pple!

alright...was really thinking about something this days...shd i quit?
sadly...my answers and tots pnt towards i shd...no more parades,no more bus rides wif frens
more qns asked,more doubts rasied,the more i wanna breakaway...
the 3A's and 2B's is enuff to make me mad...well...there are others too...but maybe not as impactful la...shall type more another day...
i hate and i regret it...partially...pls dun make it totally...
duty too xiong' adhir...haha...
cya all!

coming to an end

2009-08-05T17:36:00.000+08:00

the journey of being a GOH is coming to an end soon...one more rehearsal and its the actual on sun...
the city march last sat was great...
the feel when we completed it turned out to be betta than expected...
yup...

cya all

losing my groove...losing my mood

2009-07-31T17:04:00.000+08:00

yea...i guess dat something's flowing out of me this days...
and i seriously cant find the reason why...
well...i guess i found certain answers past few days...and my answer remains the same...its still a no...
perhaps when he decided to take the what some people call 'the leap of faith' and talk to me and dats wad resulted in the distance between us now...
avoiding him and well perhaps not wanting to disappoint himself and myself agn...lost faith...i guess
i dunno...just dun wan to touch on this topic right now...really...
still sticking to the belief of the best person to rely on is ultimately urself...and i have seen pple dat are not upholding the words...
or perhaps i'm being selfish...

and well...the sight of perhaps 3 or 4 others everyday oso takes my mood away...thats seriously bad eh...

seeing or rather hearing some guy talk...or maybe talk cock...well sometimes its really frustrating and irritating...lets just say perhaps i seen his true colours faster?

now...you are saying who i am to judge?but hey...if he's an idiot and a total bastard by nature...whats wrong wif dat?or am i just too harsh?no way...perhaps sometimes he shd just talk less...all the talk that he could have signed on and be a UAV pilot,and the talk bout he drives(auto),along with his vainess and his plain bullshit dat does not run along the main frequency and thinking dat he's damn big and all his brags...nah...wadeva amount of pullups he can do i swear i'm gonna make him feel inferior...well perhaps he's big in certain ways????if u are really so good...why are u here?
hahaha...
and yea...just knowing how to use his loud voice wif an irritating tone to get everyone moving...not enuff...and when he's not ready he just kpkb...man...sucks yea?perfect making of a selfcentered man...did i include his lack of responsibility?went drinking the previous night and erm got dead drunk...knowing dat dere's a parade the next day and erm oso knowing dat the mr bday is pulling out...coupled wif some unfortunate events dat struck 2 more guys...it was a nightmare in the morning for our dear sgt...i guess his initial plan would be getting down tgt wif the bday boy den total turn up wif no report sick or wadeva shit:18...just nice...if so i guess he done his math well and covered his ass nicely with a piece of paper called MC...and do u noe the pain he's in when u guys tie him and tape him and well torture him?he may be able to take certain fun...but i guess dat has seriously crossed the line and made me changed my opinion of u once and for all...and fancy comparing urself to erm...fiona xie?8days quoted she pulled out of the new drama 'together' last minute and producers scrambled for a replacement...sounded so much lyk him...pulling out last min on sat and our rsms had to scramble for strength...man...i rather watch fiona xie even though i dun really lyk her la

woah...looks lyk i gave quite abit of airtime for him eh?hahaha...wadeva la...he reads it so be it lor...i dun care...

next would be the 2 famous trees...one called banana tree the other big tree
lets talk bout the former 1st...oblivious...self centred...individualistic...idiocy...annoying...all this traits seriously runs in his blood...or rather stem?oso knowing dat he's a target for our mouths...he does not change...man...
and i seriously wondered why did i stop bala the other time to insult or perhaps gif him more slaps in the face...if i could predicted the future perhaps i would have gif him some too...and wtf...fancy him taking a bayonet to jab the back of my knee out of nothing after a rehearsal...total madness...man...i said alot dat i shouldnt say...but all these are my effort typing...so fuck it...

now...big tree
just the selfcentred guy as usual...nothing changes eh?
guess seriously has to change the pH of the soil for both tress to make them betta la...sucks

lastly...man...i dunno...but his tone just is not right...
his loud metal music overpowers my mp3...man...considerate abit man...and erm...his speech dat never allows anyone a way off the stage...but tries to cover himself everytime his ass is hot...such as the 'stuck fue de joie'...saying he's now...eh...when sgt feng left i moved to front row it was the media shoot already...all i had was dat few seconds to get used to the pressure...hiding behind someone was definitely a secure feeling...at times we screw up...we are not perfect...
his complains bout bren's being too thin...and small sized...but hey...look at urself...u are too big sized and over focused on ur arms...resulting in a big body...small head...man...

enuff...still got something to say...but another day la...
and erm...just rmb dat i cant gain muscles and lose weight tgt...so i shd focus on losing weight...ok...

cya all...bless me in the 3.2km city march tml...

the scare

2009-07-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

my...the threat is real eh...
one after one keep on kena...
wad's next?
someone help us...
wadeva comes i will take...if the stamp has to be made...i'm always ready to face it...

still very buay song wif certain pple or maybe certain type of pple...
pple pulling out in the 11th hour causing trouble and need the higher lvl to scramble for strength(did not know 8days copied my god bro's word)
pple insensitve...saying wrong stuff at wrong place...
pple making a mistake but just gives 1001 or maybe 1000001 excuses rather than admitting dat its his
pple using alot more words than needed to express himself
pple who thinks he's all that great but he's actually not
pple who cant diff play and fun
pple who puts himself first
pple who tries to be play punk
pple who knows that they already kena aimed but still dont do any damn thing about it...we dont owe you anything man...

man...living with such pple...
i'm asking questions...searching for answers...perhaps even when doom is here...the answer is still not found...
perhaps there's no answer to certain stuff...but well...wadeva...

reporting to camp tml...sianess at its max...wonder wads installed tml...
H1N1...sian

cya all...and TAKE CARE...
shall edit the previous post next time then...btw...ne3 was GREAT!

responsibility and professionalism

2009-07-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

pissed with alot of things and in no mood and shape to blog right now
just finished helping joei with her stuff...shall update when i'm free...

唱反调

2009-07-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

for those who cant read or understand...it means saying the opposite of what i say
well...cant take the fact that B's seriously gaining weight and A's saying 'it's ok...nvm...dun bother wad he say and all dat stuff...'

wah lao eh...DISCIPLINE la...soldier leh...act like one la...behave like one la...at least when you are in ur no.4 and of cuz no.1 and respect the uniforms man...some just dont...not dat i'm some rms or wad la...but i think its basic responsibility?

and man...pple gaining weight u say nvm...if he's 50kg wind blow fly of cuz nvm la...i would still say good job good job...but man...he's out of shape...not dat i'm in a good shape...but man...at least i try to do something...i'm damn bloody fucking sure dat A does his own training too...
wtf...dun be too bothered...slim down is not for the ahcik,not for me,not for guotai,not for peng but for urself...

hmm...maybe i'm getting to obsessed over the weight issue?wadeva the case...taking away 4kg is my goal...damn...how can dat be done when mum bought bread and i ate 2 pieces of them...guess let my discipline down one in awhile ba...once in awhile...but i still have my cravings for ICE CREAMS...wadeva...eat more move more...

simple theory?

another round of rehearsal tml...seriously dun feel lyk going sia...but everytime sat evening comes...its a diff story...hope its a great tml...
hope can get the actual goody bag soon and those tix...
cya all!
its the 50th post btw...

rotten

2009-07-14T23:16:00.003+08:00

dat's Taurus Platoon 2!
WE ARE THE BEST!RED BULL!
suddenly just miss the pple...well perhaps i got too much free time and nothing to think bout so think bout those great frens in bmt...haha
great pple dat brightened up my bmt days!
great sgts and sir!

super bored today...
watched hotshot on tv since its playing and its kinda nice...lol...it killed some time and its effective man...haha

did an evening jog and some conditioning and well...i tried the route dat links to khatib somehow on top of the normal stuff...and realised...hey...its not dat far...i can get to roy's place in lyk 20mins?lol...perhaps can try dat next time?

gwah...i'm bored...as usual...
cya all...and entertain me if u can...or maybe can kill boredom tgt?

b.o.r.e.d

2009-07-13T16:01:00.002+08:00

GUARD OF HONOUR AIRFORCE!
yea...dats who we are...
and ying...u cant complain there's no more pic yea?
hahaha...

gwah...i'm fucking bored and freaking pissed now...
with what i dunno...perhaps some of my goh mates or wadeva...well...blood's temp just shoot up when some insensitve punks just keep saying and asking my the same old thing...

i asked clement personally...how could it be wrong...and i still rmb what he said to me damn clearly and took small pains to explain to me
clement '慧宗啊，你只剩a grand total of one day of leave left'
in my face and wad more u all want?

are u sure u got only 1 day left?
how come u only got 1 day left?i got 10 days leh
woohoo...i gt 7.5 days left...
yea...good for u guys?but seriously...say one two times ok liao la...how bout write in to newspaper and tell everyone?fuck...
insensitve bastards who act like bitches and assholebess...

fri...went out wif joei!!!!haha...suki wif her and woah...there's kinda my frens gathering there too...wif desmond and his gf popping out of nowhere...haha...and pop comes clarabelle too...man...everyone's kinda free i suppose?
after suki...which i think i did not eat as much as i tot i would we went j8's more than words to get the twin's (feli and ali) presents...spent quite long and woah...bought sweets worth of $9.90...lol...

sat...as usual...GOH stuff...great day,great parade,but well...kids are getting noiser these days and scream at almost everything...scream at f-16s flying past their heads,scream at gun salute,scream at our fue de joie...gwah...

sun...went tp to get my stuff and met ying for abit too...back home for lunch and off to roy's place for seba's Wii...off to alan's place next...and well...his leg was...wrapped in layers...and seriously...fuck the COS...pple already cant manuever easily still call him go him...idiots with no brains...
pooled abit after dinner and dats about it...
and back to work wif monday blues...gwah...how i look forward to 061110...still got so much time...damn...

and well...lunch pretty much sucked cuz i ate cup noodles which sucks...gwah...or maybe i'm just too full with anger wif some idiots?wadeva the case...
cya all

reluctance

2009-07-08T22:10:00.002+08:00

gwah...can i dun march tml?

and i seem to be waking up on the wrong side of my bed this days...a neck strain and well blood boils fairly easily these days...still cant get over some selfish fellas...

i already said it in your face...so...lets just say it agn...you are too selfish...
guess taurus did teach me something afterall...
and all ur talks and bullshits...i really have had enuff...stop acting lyk u noe everything but actually u noe nothing...a loud voice?

SO?i really dun gif a damn man...
and dun criticize others when u are well...just the same?
call others brainless...are you really so clever?so wad if u got a diploma and got a place booked in the uni?bigfuck?

u call others child...but hell...aint u acting lyk a child too?
man...i really shd stop...if not i'm acting lyk a child too...gwah...

and if u wanna do something...gif ur best...if not might as well dun do...
to joei:i shall show u my ippt gold soon...haha...so dun so i not fit...and seriously la...i'm the one motivating the one's around me lor...gwah...

cya all!
SUKISUKISUKI

Physical Torture Instructor?

2009-07-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

i guess dats wad i am?
just physically tortured myself by pushing myself to my limit...
or well...over my limit by jogging far more than my normal body could take normally on consecutive days...
now i'm feeling the aches all over my legs...well done eh?gwah...thx to the uncle who measured me months ago and made my actual no.1 just fit...damn...bo bian...cant latr tell sir 'eh...sir...think i grown too fat liao...my no.1 dun fit...'
guess i would be a joke eh?

oso...pushing myself over the limit oso to improve my fitness...
hope i can get my hands on the 42.195km shirt next year or the year after next?i would not mind getting the 10km one too..wif the participant no. printed on the shirt...it sure is cool ya?
considering dat my 2.4km run was a sucker timing back in sch of close to 14mins...even gals can run faster than me la...but well...its all very diff now...
well another aim is to lose more weight...and i want to do more pull ups!!!
hopefully 20 by end of the year?current max 13...but dats wif undergraft...overgraft i could only manage 8 at most...
time to train overgraft...oso i wanna prove to those pple dat they are not the big fucks around just becuz they are so fit...
so wad if u can run fast,do alot of pull ups but cant even show care and concern to the masses?
yea...really...so wad?
if i cant beat u in other any ways...i will win the shit out of u in pt by pushing myself hard...

and woah...mr alan just dislocated his knee when doing a knee jab...
i wonder how much force he used and well he really made me luff my ass off...
gwah...all the talk bout saturday supper...and noe u are bed ridden...but well not for long i hope...get some cluthes or wheel chair la!!!
we got drivers...we got cars...can be done!!!
or the most bbq at his place agn!

see how things go ba?who noes misfortune might strike on me such as i bang on my toes while executing a drill?though chances are pretty low and touch wood...i sweat so much to be taken out by a dumb injury now...
i really want to be the party of we dat make it happen!!!NDP 09...
oh...pq's dere too...haha...can say hi to her tis sat...hahaha...hopefully dun have to wait so much anymore...gwah...and oh...train so much is oso to endure the city march too!
commandos and navy are so much fitter than us...if they can do it why cant we...
we are huamn...they are human...they got mother father we have them too...right...training's thing...hope the camera flashes and applause would be enuff to push us all the way...

really appreciate the appluase and cheers frm 3rd party...well...someone not in the contingent basically...cheers really keeps me going...at least...the exhuastion and numbness would disappear...and it would allow me to reach into my reserves easier?but after dat would be another story...haha...but wadeva...just cheer us on if you are there...a small applause or encouragement keeps us going...yep...jiayou...3.2km

gwah...alan!GET WELL SOON...
cya all (:

NE SHOW 1 tml!

2009-07-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

woots...after months of training and sweat...its finally HERE!
ne show!!!
performing for the pri 5 kids to see...well not just us la...and the choirs and wad not...man...hope dat i can catch the performance too but too bad,we gotta go for a city march after dat and i think i can only catch the repeat telecast and dats provided i'm not on shift...
man...been YEARs since i'm so interested in NDP which the standards of performance was really declining badly...lyk its the same old thing or wadeva...some might noe what i'm trying to say...
hmm...perhaps this year the idea is betta?

or its just becuz i'm in it den i'm more enthu or it could be both...haha...
looking forward to tml...hope dat when i turn to face the crowd i'm not scared out of my wits or wadeva...i did not during the saf day parade...hope i can keep it up this time and i certainly wanna be in ALL of the ne shows,the preview and of cuz the actual...and esp NE 3...where my frens are there...

and man...its a great chance for kids to exp a ndp CELEBRATION...yea...we noe dat H1N1 is out there,but man...govt is doing all it can...and i'm sure the sch will oso do all it can to curb it...oso if ur child is unwell take mc la...or parents letter lor...
been really long since i even mentioned parent's letter...and seriously get your facts right...marina promenade can only hold about 20k pple...or even lesser...not wad numbers of 50k...dats lyk padang or national stadium...damn...we train and pract hard...sweat and got scolded and drilled...the choirs and performers too...man...and u wan us to keep performing in front of an empty crowd...hard...we need confidence boosters too...
and of cuz its easier to perform in front of crowd rather than doing ur drills facing empty chairs...man...why cant we stop being so paraniod?damn...
countless questions...limited answers...

hope everything run smoothly tml (:
cya all!

not looking back anymore...i swear

2009-07-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

yup...been 6 years since the faithful incident happened...some pple call me dumb some pple call me this and dat and what not...but 6 years on...i moved on totally and finally...realised dat i'm an idiot in the pass and learnt many many things and gain infintely many exp...but i'm share dere's much more to learn and much more to see and gain...learning never stops but i'm sure those wasted time will make me treasure wads next more and my present more too...

goh has been fun...saf day on 1st july...a not too good start...but we took off from there and never looked back at all...greatly done by all of us...glad dat everything went well and even president nathan inspected the parade tgt wif col singh and cdf...not too bad exp standing 1st row...having them walking past u...woots...once in a life time exp...not a everyday exp...yea...treasured that moment...its really a long journey since i 1st joined the goh...during the 1st coc i'm lyk a cock...cant execute stuff properly...now standing in the 1st row...been a long way...long long way...sweat and maybe muscles rather than blood...all the henta kakis dat made me or even us out of breathe...the times we cursed...the pple dat dropped...man...its really long...ndp is coming SOON!

looking forward (:
cya all...

i pangseh'ed agn

2009-06-23T17:36:00.002+08:00

haha...yea...was suppose to be at kbox now...but well...as i was walking out of my hse i opened my wallet and to my greatest horror...i only have got 15bucks inside...damn...i thought i had 20...oh well...walked back home and stayed at home...man...wad a bummer...no 5hits...haha...but well can always do it on bus to safti or to marina...lol

saw videos of our drills...yup...agn...looks GREAT!
no selfpraise here k...its really good...bout one more week to saf day parade...
1 month plus to ndp...

nth much really happening this days other than our goh stuff and well must say dat i cant stand some pple...oh well...
com'on...close one eye when u have to and seriously...why must we always do it your way and can we have some silence pls...seems lyk the mp3 dat will never get sick of playing and rolling...man...and its never rocking...and stop putting up dat air of upness when seriously you are not at all...and dun think u are dat well built...com'on...
and oh my...mr banana...already got fucked till the cow come home...but well still never learn anything at all...still gifs dat same old blank stare...slow to react...be defensive of himself and blah blah blah...oh well...sux
and doa jia...still as self centred,oblivious and fucked up...

nah...dun gif a shit to those pple who see this cuz i think its betta dat u see and learn dat hey...'u suck...and you are not all dat great yea...'

on a lighter note...worn the ACTUAL no.1 ytd...and hell the measuring uncle nv gimme any space to expand at all...thx la...haha...but oso serve as motivation to maintain i guess?gwah...cant go to build up...haha...and i lifted my ban on soft drinks today...haha...gonna go for another ban perhaps till next weekend i guess?

muz do...jog at least 4 times a week...if not 3
do pull ups x2 repitition
do leg power training
do situps
all this to lose 4kg more...
current weight:72kg

cya all!

circle

2009-06-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

its just repetition and more repetition of those drills dat we are doing...seriously sianed at times but the fun is there...see those ah ciks giving their speech then imitating them when we got nth to do...haha

been under the hot hot sun past few days and even under the media...but oh well...our contingent's not shot as much as the others...hope we have our breakthru on the actual...haha...or soon...more rehearsals at the floating platform...but well...we are standing on the road...damn...no chance to feel the platform...hope can sneak there next few times...haha...
when the time has come...its time to perform i guess...

slept like a dead pig today...still not feeling any fresher...and damn...gotta book in real soon...gwahs...

shagged

2009-06-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

felt ultimately shagged out after today's rehearsal...but haha...chatting wif youngyi on the bus back to sbab was fun...reminisced the great and bad times in yj...haha...and talked bout lame stuff and changes we would LOVE to see...but oh well...its never possible in our lifetime...

oso came a very bad news...well probby to me la...mr slack sgt feng is gonna be taken out of the ndp...not dat i dread standing the 1st row(dats if i have to) but he's really a nice fren i made thru the course of this long and tough journey...real funny and great guy...haiz...less one fren for this journey...but well...its less than 2 months till ndp...3 weeks more to saf day parade...in between there's a sbab coc too i guess...and wads more after dat a rsaf day parade?haiz...guess my vocation now really is guard of honour instead of rp liao la...
parades...parades...and more parades...

went to alan's hse for a mini bbq after the rehearsal in no.1...haha...was fun bbq'ing at his place man...wif funny food dat we bbq'ed like salmon fish and even UNAGI!its GREAT man...haha...thx for the treat...hope dat the year end bbq tis time would be great wif more kinds of exotic food...haha...maybe lizard tails?haha...

dan just went in...and alan's following suit tml afternoon...enjoy ur stay man...haha and cya in a few weeks time...hopefully i'm a little more free by then...

cya all...in need of rest...BADLY

survived

2009-06-11T18:00:00.002+08:00

well...the title says everything yea?survived the morning's rehearsal...perhaps its not as tough as tue's one...but nonetheless its a great job on just surviving...and the most troublesome contingent's not there too...phew...thus lesser redo and well...sun's kinda mercy until the last part...but still we are burnt too...

seriously thinking of how to survive sat's city march whereby my hands cant even be straight for the final few hundred metres...guess perhaps on the actual day its more of the adrenaline rush when pple are cheering and clapping for u which is wad dats gonna get us going...i guess the claps and cheers are encouragement by the sirs and spectators there too...gwah...less than 2 months to ndp...hope its a good show...

cya all...

tired

2009-06-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

been hell of a past few days seriously...went drinking,parade,shopping,dinner,keeping fit and stuff...its really madness i guess...
had no time to really just rest well and though i had the luxury of time to zuo bo,i would always find something to do...

went suki sushi past week and chiong the buffet...realised dat i still have my huge appetite...which is a good thing...eating=recovery=stamina...haha...eat more,run even more to lose more weight...which happened i guess...after the crazy eating sessions,i'm clocking betta timings for my runs...kinda 10 secs betta than previous timings...shocked myself too...hope 9.44 is not so far away...pull-ups are coming back too...guess its time to UPP! myself...

rehearsals for both ndp and saf day are getting crazier,harder,hotter by each one...still sorting out the timings for saf day...but man...its kinda scary seeing guys just dropping down one by one...no joke man...endure abit,tahan and pull thru...sounds easy...but seriously sometimes gotta dig in really deep...the evac party were kinda busy today too...hope thur is no repeat of tis morning's disaster...hope...guess it will just come crushing down for all i noe...but hope...

and hmm...tot dat i would actually prefer well to be the only kk in my bunk...does not really like the shared responsibility or taking care of someone else...sick of being the nice guy...and well...i dunno...just hope dat the journey ends soon...but all i can say its been a tiring but fun one up till date in the guard of honour journey...meeting pple...esp funny ones...and too think it killed my bad habit of dragging shoes too...instil discipline argh?definitely i guess...and hmm...the perks of seeing red cross mdm on sat is woots!

cya all...

lazy

2009-06-07T21:44:00.001+08:00

well...was lazy to blog today...man i really have quite abit to say...guess i will do it at other times when i'm hardworking...

booking in tml and i'm off for an early night...

cya all...

bad news...

2009-05-31T11:49:00.002+08:00

well...i got rejected by nus...i guess the rejection letter from ntu is coming anytime soon...how great is dat...when i finally say i want to settle down and study hard for myself and of cuz my loved ones,the doors just shut on me...dreads...guess i will try agn next year,along with some private uni i suppose...OR if not i just sign on?
but seriously...wad can i sign on as?gwah...abit lost but well i still got quite abit of time to sort stuff out while i'm serving my dear nation by being the guard of honour for well quite a couple of parades...

went out to drink on fri night wif thomas,james and terrence at chamber...was joined by sgt shawn and his frens and even more frens of his over there...haha...played a few games and drank my ass off,not dat i got dead drunk or puked...none of us did la...just one bottle of martel nia...small case...lol...had a pretty good drink with the company of new frens made over there and the 'karaok' session...lol...

rushed home to shower and rest for ndp rehearsals on sat...was a hard day...especially when the commandos joined us,timings,precision and everything has to be retrained...the worst part of all...our 'fue de joie' has to be reco-ordinated...had to hold the gun in homat position longer...and their firing...well still not perfected yet la...drained...and there was the 2km city march which killed us all...but well...commandos are commandos...not even a single 'kalei'...and oh my...not quite looking forward to tue wif the saf day parade...8am to 5pm...man...its CRAZY...but well its DRILLS as quoted by warrant khoo...so yea...lets go practice some DRILLS...

oh well...ponders...
cya all

POP LOH!

2009-05-26T17:11:00.002+08:00

yup...finally passing out tml...had another 1/2 day off today...feeling good eh...no more crazy shit will happen to us...at least dats wad i hope...
no more knock it down
no more keluar baris
no more fall in
no more stand by
no more alot of stuff...haha...

booking in tonight...sianx...for countless nights i slept on my own bed...shiok...but well,they changed beds and stuff anyway...hope it would be nice...haha

cya all

Great Days

2009-05-22T09:23:00.003+08:00

had quite a good week...mon spent half a day in camp cleaering the remaining stores for the guys and off we went back to home to rest up to prep for our ndp rehearsals...which is seriously quite xiong...but its fun and great meeting new pple

wed!!!!
went to the ZOO!like finally after a million or maybe a gazillion years?
had loads of fun there and seriously seeing those kids made me tot of the old times when we have worksheets and man had to run here run there and everywhere to look for them...oh my...good old days...but those kids were simply too engrossed in finding the answers but forgot bout the excursion part?i guess...its lyk they were there to do hw more than see the animals...my...i guess why not call the chers let them use internet will do?
and oh my...the animals there are quite sian?like so little space for them to move about and they are quite dao?and hell...most of the look quite old...time to bring in new ones la...esp the lions and tigers...wanna take foto of them but they wont even bother to face me...gwah...idiots!and my...walked the whole zoo which is damn tiring k...

ndp rehearsals!
marched 1.5km and 2km on tue and thur respectively...thur was more ok due to the kalei...if not for dat i think right hand would be dislocated...haha...'feu do joie'
is improving and 8secs does not seem so far away now...haha...though tue i screwed up abit and its seems dat the standard demanded is really damn high...abit of focus not there and poof...u are swapped...of cuz i wanna stay all the way...though its tiring...but hell...once in a lifetime chance...though rsm said 'next year its still you guys'...but i guess once is enuff...
in case you guys are wondering wads feu do joie...

and it sux to be left out of the 'top dog'...well...not dat my ego is high or wadeva...but it simply sux when u see someone you think u are better than him and he gets the spot but not you...but oh well...the pressure is on them to perform then...not me...so perhaps its a blessing in disgiuse?

oh well...gonna go back to base to sharpen drills soon...and paiseh alan,sir took away my off...so another day ba...haha

cya all...

welcome back home

2009-05-17T15:08:00.002+08:00

home SWEETEST home!
yup...cant believe that i survive the outfield exercise...taxing right to the last cell of my body...and i guess not only mine...my platoon mates' and of cuz my course mates' one too...its hectic and crazy and xiong...and i guess i would be quite afraid of sand and sandbags now...carried sandbags lyk nobody's business and kinda worked everything of to get things done and we were short of manpower and faced quite abit of setbacks...overcame them and got things done in the end...and the price of it was...heat rashes ALL around my body...and had to go for ndp rehearsals on thur...

well...perhaps we looked like that?

goh is definitely fun...looking forward to more as sat went not too bad...esp the last 'fire of joy' (:
we will get there!

cya...
faster POP la...our seniors already 'ord loh'

2009-05-10T16:29:00.002+08:00

skin changed!
yup...kinda proud of myself...agn...and haha...as usual...
1st things 1st...happy mother's day!haha...but well i believe its mother's day everyday as long as we are nice and obey them yea?or probably only me thinks dat way...but well...its my own thinking la...

had quite a crazy week in base...prep for live firing which was ultimately cancelled...thx to swine flu...gwah...bad in certain ways...but hey...if not for it i could not have been here enjoying myself...haha...but still its back to camp tonight...dreads though...and hell...our new i/c...ultimate cui'ness?kinda the kind of pple dat i dear to raise my hand and sound off 'sergeant,i think i can do a better job than him,let me be the i/c please!'
well...of cuz i did not and obviously,many others were mumbling and cursing too...fancy dragging our bookout timing...the air outside is definitely much much better man...but fuck it la...lets not drag the timing anymore and just march of from dat place...

sat...wanted to celebrate mr kalai's 21st bday wif him...but well...the bday man did not turn up...wtf...end up,charles,vin,kelvin,alvin and me had lunch at fish and co. amk hub...and haha...yifong was there too...quite a high tendency to bump into him tis days...went home after buying a new pair of street soccer shoes...hope it stop giving me prob and well went to town for awhile...and haha!at night tested my new shoes!
had great games playing great oppenents...and the shoes are not too bad either...but well its getting dirty just after the 1st game...and i guess finally i got into the same team as roy...lol...worked hard,ran hard,defended hard...and we stayed on the court for lyk 80mins?man...sembawang ocs is not as hard as dat i swear...haha...muz train harder!
during corners were funny as i tried connecting to the balls roy threw...but hey,i concealed myself well k...u cant deny dat...haha...

sun...rest at home and now gonna go for our exercise!
goh rehearsals starting soon and i wont have anything called saturday till ndp is over...but well...lets go enjoy the training and certainly hope dat he does not screw us over lyk we some minishot and he's a big fuck...cuz he's not one and we are human...made of flesh and blood...definitely...our mothers and fathers are not virgin...so wad makes him so special dat he thinks he's up dere and we are just trash...man...

cya all...
pray for me dat i come back in one full piece on friday

2009-05-05T21:10:00.001+08:00

I'm a RP now!
yup...thats it and i'm booking in latr...
shit...totally dread it and i though i could be watching man u vs arsenal and now i have to watch it in my dreams...yawns...already feeling so tired...book in wad shit?

cya all...

2009-05-03T12:41:00.002+08:00

happy(belated) birthday!
turned 20 last friday...and was with the company of my frens the night b4...wenx,ling,alan...well wanted to at least drank abit and i got wad i wished for...drank ABIT...half a shot...and after cabbing and taking train all the way to clark quay at the retro yello jello bar...we left after sitting there for awhile...wth...and we left for home k...not elsewhere to drink...and well my army frens too never show up cuz all were tired from live range...lol...

the atmosphere inside the bar was well so-so la...could have been betta if not for the 2 buay zi dong lao aunties who went to dance their ass off...the music was damn loud...louder than live rounds i guess...when i stepped out of the bar my ears had that 'yiiiiiii' sound la...lol...guess i've retired from all tis...

spent fri wif my lovely frens walking around town for new clothes and i got them (:
then dined and went to indochine at wisma...much betta tis time round...and it's my 1st time too (:
heard the live band which was not too bad but oso not fantastic that night either...but well...all of us there had an unwelcomed guest...it looks like an anorexic he donned in she clothes or well...a trans...identity crisis and it was attracting more attention than the band...oh well...drank a shot and a bottle...dats all...had to book in the next day for the course...wad a bummer...

gwah...lazy to upload the photos...so i guess i wont do it...or maybe when i'm more hardworking...lol...
cya all (:
thx for all the wishes!

2009-04-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

its a bookout day everyday!
well...at least for ytd and today...staying in camp tml and hey its bookout day once agn on thur!
learnt certain stuff and well got my hands bruised thx to tlc showered by vin...haha...but well mine's certainly not the worst around man...so count myself lucky...

woots...counting down the the lovely day when i was borned 20 years ago...man...entered the '2' stage already...oh well...looking at the cuiness of my wallet i think i will add dat to my wishlist too!

off i go...booking in tml agn...
cya all guys (:

2009-04-26T22:15:00.002+08:00

i wan to go
to the zoo
to the bird park
to sentosa
to shop till i drop
well items to be in the bag...PS3,a vest,a jeans,more tops,a pair of shoes and slips
k box

but before i can go to all tis places...i must go sembawang air base tml morning 1st...oh well
cya all (:
enjoy and work hard during this 4 day week and we can chiong the weekend!drink!fun!and what not?!

2009-04-26T12:00:00.003+08:00

a tough week
yup...training was really crazy...i mean for our standards la...when we were told we are rp i tot its goodbye to tough days and crazy training...but man...it was really a crazy week wif little rest and heavy exhuastion...travelled from places to places and even went to SAFTI imt where the real OCS pple are...lol...well...we are just imposters...

and i muz say i'm glad to be home when i booked out on fri...i smelt like some salted fish...i was itching all over...well...the word uncomfortable is an understatement...camo on for 30 hours...never shower for bout 48hrs...slept on floor...shd not be anything too much for me...but well perhaps its just lethargy setting in and shutting down of my will power,my neck started to itch like nobody's business and same for my back...well managed to endure though...its basically crazy stuff...and just thankful and glad that kelvin's bro fetched us back home...and even more thankful for mum and dad to be there and buy supper for me while i washed up thoroughly...

sat...went out wif roy and frens and watched the liverpool-arsenal match at his place too...man...i was totally out of contact wif the world for a week so many things are alien to me...had a bday dinner at vivo's sushi teh and then went starbucks for coffee...and had to fly home...watched the man u-spurs match and to my greatest horror when i switched on the tv the scoreline read manu 0-2 tot...mum told me to off the tv but i insisted on watching...man u won 5-2 in the end...thankgoodness i watched!woke up early in the morning to try to regain certain amount of physical fitness and luckily it did not drop and it maintained!guess its time to cover more distance with the same pace...and still could manage 10 pull ups after run...well done!sembawang ocs definitely shaped me up...
oh yea...saw a bunch of yj peeps while i was jogging round my estate too...well they were there for some mp visit and breakfast wif residents stuff and while they were there to do sai gang and gain cip hours?saw yangrong and yikuang too...definitely great to see familiar faces...hahaha...well yj wushu was there too...the lion dance troupe i guess...

well...dat basically sums up my 'great' week...of cuz i'm happy today!cuz its not book in day!haha...but well still gotta book in tml morning...and dat means squeezing with pple in the bus...but well...at least i can sleep at home!YEA!

hmm...perhaps i'm the one being selfish all along?perhaps sergeant jack,sergeant teck meng and sergeant eugene were right dat we are bunch of selfish idiots when they screwed us pass few days and even weeks for not doing our stuff properly and not helping out wif each other...esp during the camo on then camo off and camo on agn part...and well it got me reflecting agn on thur night...shagged as i was i still think of stuff...perhaps i'm the selfish person who's just asking too much...yup...i must change and noe that pple are different and i shd also give more and not to expect much cuz i believe that when the time for reward comes,it will come...so juz wait and be patient...yup (: stay positive...

bday coming in 5 days time!so lets just hope dat i have a good week in camp and celebrate it wif frens and family!no idea where i wanna go and stuff too...but well lets just have fun on dat day (:

2009-04-19T11:05:00.003+08:00

darker and duller
well...life in camp has not been exactly great the past week...shan't talk so much bout it here anyway but well it just seems dark and gloomy now...its about 2 weeks or so to end the of the course...but well...its when the real pain begins i guess...

and well...sometimes honour does not come easily...and even in the midst or honour...there are bound to be shit too...

shall be looking to change the blog skin i guess...

cya all...pray dat i come back alive...or i would be greatful if i'm half alive...

2009-04-12T17:57:00.002+08:00

its sunday...agn...
well...2 good days of fun seemed short and in exchange of these 2 days...here comes the hell from mon onwards...oh well...endure and endure...till fri and its book out and disappear...

cya ~~

2009-04-11T21:41:00.002+08:00

Great 2 days...
yup...the feeling of booking out on thur night...GREAT...though the long and fast walk out of camp after the takaning session was crazy...well...the feeling of wanna go home beats everything and i'm starting to appreciate home more and more and obviously...the phrase 'home sweet home'...nth beats home...

this week in camp well...was bit and bit of takaning thrown at us in order to let the course bond?i guess...but well humans could never bond with monkeys so it would be abit hard...either transform monkey to humans or humans to monkeys...shall not reveal anymore or it might be a chargable offence...but well its a tiring week though...ippt and rehearsals for the change of command of apgc...well...more strainess activity to come for week 4 i believe...live in fear every moment...be well prepared and equipped for any shit that u step onto or thrown at you even...BEWARE...well...i WILL survive...even without a buddy...well...kinda missed my bmt buddy(hongwei)...well...he's quiet(at times) and often showers and do his own stuff but when it comes to team play or when pple needs help seriously he's there for us...but now...well...completely cui...cant even be bothered to learn up simple commands and just so selfish...man...sometimes i really feel lyk cursing him out loud...but well...does not reflect well on me...but man...something i must do to make him stop thinking dat the course revolve around him...man...hope some miracle or divine intervention occurs...if not i'm so gonna die during our 'fieldcamp'...well...probby not die la...but just get fucked up lor...

speaking bout 'fuck'...cant swear in camp due to a person who cant stand vulgarities...and hell...its not scolding him he oso cant tahan...seriously screwed up la...man...sian...anyways army stuff aside...

had a not too bad good friday!went out wif seba and roy...bought nth though but had a great dinner!FISH HEAD STEAM BOAT!!!like after so long and played pool after dat...man...totally sucked at it and totally out of pract...and man...the fri totally felt lyk a sat though...i rarely have fri afternoons walking around in bugis or taking train in the day...so...haha...
sat...went back peirce abit...listened to the choir and...i believe is...GOT HOPE...hope they rmb everything mr ong said and yea...perhaps perhaps can bring back the silver...but well...wad i heard was not the full pict though...well...hear the good stuff...power 98fm...lol...

nth much else...but i'm seriously gonna consider getting a ps3...muhaha!back to ds!
cya all!

2009-04-05T17:28:00.001+08:00

dreading sundays
yup...dreading it...used to dread sunday cuz its time to chiong all unfinished work or test when i was in sch...then dread it cuz its book IN day...
certainly miss the times in bmt when i look forward to sunday...oh well...dreads...with the rain over...i just wanna sleep and well sleep...

cya all...

2009-04-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

feeling glad...
yup...dats wad i'm feeling now!well...perhaps not at all glad la...but i'm sure i'm feeling good?
well been to new camp and see the pple for the 2nd week already and a whole lot of shit happened and of cuz interacted wif lots of pple and even our sergeants opened up abit to us...feeling good dat i have a few familiar faces right in camp such as vin and kelvin and new frens such la kalai and charles(encik and officer)...but well there are a few stubborn nuts there too...but well those characters are everywhere...

oso questioned myself about 'discipline'...lots flowed thru my head and had a little diff view wif some frens bout the punishment and course of action taken to 4 monkeys when they violated a rule and did some bollywood act of pushing the curtain open...well...my stand is always 'u beat the red light...you gotta pay the fine'(if you are caught...obviously)...we shd noe when's the time to play and when's not the time...and hell...i'm not sure if pple tis days will rmb the good u done or will they ever rmb the times they were spared...well...as they saying goes pple only weep when they see their coffin...so yea...

and hell...sgt jack does sure looks lyk gary ding...lol...and eny chye's there as well...seems lyk a yj gathering eh...but well...certainly glad that there are frens around...and well just dun be so close wif some...man...wonder how to tahan some pple if we kena same shift and all the best to me during our exercise wif such a wonderfully selfish partner who only cares bout himself...well...betta dun get me fucked if not i promise i get him fucked 10 times more...

shopping mode was activated somehow for no reason...but still did not get the chance to walk around yet la...though i roughly noe wad i wanna buy...a vest,jeans and polo tees and a shirt...cant wait for pay increment after the course...and hope my lcp comes soon...sent sis to the airport just now...she's back to japan for another year to study...how i wish i could be studying and mixing wif those pple too...well...

just glad that i'm kinda educated and erm yea...just cant explain why...thk my parents for sending me to sch and i appreciate it as i really felt dat sch really mould us into betta pple wif brains dat has the ability to think faster and oso betta...

well...cya all...ippt coming...2.4km is now 10.32...9.45 still seem so far away...jia you...

2009-03-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

TAKE A KICK?
ouch i heard you say...yup...i guess we are just like balls to be kicked around by them...they happy they kick...they not happy they kick even harder...words like nevermind will always be followed by this famous phrase 'knock it down' there...well...you already said nvm...so why knock us down?contradiction eh?plain stupidity and dumbness...alright i'm just trying to be funny...or maybe not so funny...but freak it...

teamplay...i guess i would prefer to work individual then...if one person in the team screws up the whole team gets it...or if one makes mistakes the rest pay as well...woah...they call that team play i suppose...i hate paying extra for mistakes not done by me and i sure hate it when others pay becuz i make a mistake...call me an individualist...i dun ask for help very often in the court/pitch or wherever...but hey...i can shout out loud and proud and wif my conscience i dun drag pple to get punish becuz of me...can you?perhaps teamplay's not my cup of tea...well bascially i hate it when i get it but its not my fault or others get it when its my fault...well...if thats teamplay perhaps i have to take on teamplay and bring it down...

gwah...wadeva...5 more weeks left and goh rehearsals coming up!hope i can survive (:
cya all...

where are the subtitles?

2009-03-24T17:56:00.003+08:00

WHERE ARE THE SUBTITLES?
yup!just finished watching hunter x hunter anime and was bout to proceed to watch the ova...but to my greatest horror...THERE's NO SUBTITLES and i DONT FUCKING understand ANYTHING they are saying...gwah...so i dropped the idea of watching the ova's and come here to kill time...

just packed my stuff for tml...i'm given a day off btw...so its really back to slacking days of sleep and sleep...guess i need them too...squeezing with pple early in the morning is damn tiring...i'm not a super traveller in the morning you see...pri sch i often take sch bus or dad's car...and its just ai tong...so near my house la...sec sch...dad still fetches me to sch often or taking the bus is actually damn easy as well...dats peirce btw...jc...took bus myself daily and well...its only a few stops...

but ytd...i had to travel to clementi...had to fight with pple for space in bus and then in train...cross over the platform and squeeze and fight wif pple agn...still not done...take another bus then reach...gwah...sux...and tml have to travel wif EVERYTHING...gwah...gonna become some muscle man and violent man to make everyone get out of my way...hahaha...gonna say goodbye to the world for 6 weeks...and i'm sure its gonna be more tough than the intro camp...turnouts of emergency exercises and what not shd be plentiful...just make sure we dun bah long long and take our own sweet time ba...

mum showed me old fotographs (:
i looked so young then...haha...lyk duh...showed me fotos dat i went bird park,zoo and sentosa as a baby...looked really cute and my face was more cheerful and my mum was saying i'm so 天真无邪...unlike now where fuck,knn,ccb or wad not just comes out of my mouth like running water...and hmm...i think i gotta listen to more of that at the new place ba...gwah...bad influence...

cya all...survive 6 weeks+2 weeks (:

2009-03-22T00:33:00.002+08:00

soccerful days!
yup...played ball on fri and sat...like finally and well maybe abit too much too...lol...must one shot cover up for those days that i did not play...well...i guess i still have abit of ball sense but i seriously did not feel good on fri...still carrying the cough and flu which resulted in so much mucus and phlegm stuck and blocking my air's passage way dat made it hard for me to play...but just so glad that after playing on fri i recovered fully (: well perhaps just abit cough left but no more running nose!yea...

dui zhang called his 'fren' and woah...an sa soccer team striker who's oso the A div top scorer to play wif us...haha...she really got the deal man...after dat went to kallang kfc and to my horror,those drink refil stations are gone due to renovations...man...the renovations sucks la...and eddie used my student card to buy student meal -_-'''
bah long long abit inside kfc...talked bout ns stuff sch stuff and all the stuff...and oh yea...i made a fashion statement by wearing diff coloured shoes?one white wif red strips and one black wif white strips...haha...both adidas but diff predator series...dats to prevent injuries to my left foot's toes...2 toe nails frm my left have dropped out since and it shd stop i guess...so maybe a pair of new shoes is on the way...after dat chilled abit wif ryan at amk hub...went home and cancelled the meet up wif shi hui due to exhuastion and she had classes too...rested...

sat!!!!!played soccer wif roy and his frens...and i think its at least half a year roy and i never play tgt in the same team...same for today...played my butts out literally today?fell hard on my butt while making a tackle on the wet floor...and we were dominant for 6 to 7 games straight?
quite happy dat sam recognised my ability to defend and propably dats why we started winning cuz i stopped being the keeper?a permanant body at the back is much better than running everywhere to be in the thick of the action...legs are tired as hell now so its resting time!

cya all (:

2009-03-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

PISSFUL day
yup...that says it all right?i dunno why but i woke up on the wrong side of my bed...feeling pissed right from the 1st moment i opened my eyes...perhaps its becuz gotta wake up early to watch movie wif my mum and sis...not dat they are boring or wad but i just felt damn pissed bout something which i could not explain too...perhaps its the stupid and dumb uni application dats pissing me off real bad...or maybe its just dat the weather's perfect for a great sleep but the movie trip just came at the wrong day,wrong time...well...so fuck it anyway...was damn rude to everybody in the hse and i swear i knew how 'smelly' my face was...the movie(legend of chun-li) was not too bad la...perhaps might be better if i was not in such a bad mood just now...gwah...well done me...

after that came home and slacked all day...played my ds unlocking stages in my game and stuff...well enjoying my final moments of block leave...its impt yea...wadeva...just relax and enjoy now...hmm...had a pretty fun wed and a lunch wif alan and bah long long walk abit in amk hub on tue...

went to mr phua's chalet last night...the trip there was pretty long...i swear...ALOHA CHANGI...wah lao eh...not dat i can really go chiong la...tot of just bah long long go dere show face and bah long long zhao...but sadly...dat was not the case...the moment i stepped in i was dragged to play some game on xbox 360...lol...and i hogged the controller for bout 30mins?lol...pro eh...some super heroes game la...and haha...until someone in red see me hog the controller so long and challenged me...of cuz i was beaten flat and square,hands down,face down and not quite pants down...lol...i swear i took him quite near the edge even w/o using cheapskate methods k...unlike daniao...lol...cheapskate king...play games liddat not fun one la...win but oso no challenge...well...diff pple diff mentality...and well after dat wanted to eat but not so suprisingly...there's only bbq'ed chicken wings and lyk hotdogs...hell...you expect a guy who just recovered from total lost of voice to eat dat...so we bah long long on alan's lorry and he drove quite a number of us to my hse den walked outside for our dinper(dinner and supper)time was around 11PM mind you...

after dat he drove the rest home and i rested...and woke up feeling pissed...well...kinda looking forward to tml...finally gonna kick some ball...but well its at KALLANG...wtf...sian bout the travelling but the rest is ok la...so shd not complain...and according to william there will be 2 chio bu!woots...lol...
fingers crossed bout posting too (: all the best pple regardless of collecting posting or getting ur results tml...

cya all fellas

2009-03-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

A TRIP TO VIVO
lyk finally yo...after 18months or so i finally went there agn this afternoon...with a runny nose and 70% of my voice and of cuz my dear cough which tagged me since last wed due to ice creams and chips and wad not such as popcorns and corns and well...sin...haha...went there wif huiqi...my pri sch junior...lol...and hmm we did not see each other for lyk a donkey years?

walked area vivo and of cuz looked at stuff...could not find much polo tees dat i like but finally found one at river island and poof its in my shopping bag...hq got herself a belt there too...and gal's stuff in ALL stores from zara to topshop to espirit and ALL takes up 3/4 while gals only have 1/4 of it la...dats UNFAIR!!!but well...and hell seeing her control her shopping queen mode is quite funny as she's really into phtography so much so dat she got herself some omega big camera...lyk those pple dat take pple's wedding dinner kind...lol...was kinda fascinated when we left vivo and she took me walk walk around those camera shops and those prices are lyk...POOF...lenses can be more ex than the cam itself!THIS IS MADNESS...roar...

damn...flipped thru the uni books moments ago and did some research and stuff...man...i found that nothing interest me at all...but wadeva i'm still gonna go apply lor...pple do just follow la...safety in numbers...but hell...i'm seriously dead meat la...sux...but well for my future...but will rmb wad advice my sis gave...lol...sounded crappy but wtf...just take it lor...

the walking in vivo today is much more tiring the usual...wonder why...did not walk as much as last time...i could tahan 6 hrs nonstop la...but now its lyk...walk one hour felt lyk walking 10hrs...gwah...wads wrong wif me...hope can kick ball or shit coming fri...yups
cya all...

2009-03-14T21:22:00.003+08:00

i'm bored!
even though i'm watching man u vs liverpool now...damn vidic...letting the ball bounce...
oh well...did not do much today but rot at home?no ball to play...damn sian and sux...it's been bout 2months + since i last played ball of any form...grhh...did nth much since pop other than feeling rather sick?oh...helped ari buy his ds on thur though...and walked around yishun...

saw some yj peeps and well...no word say bout them...haha...dun care if they are my juniors la...i'm no longer there anymore...slept lyk a pig today...guess dats why i'm feeling much better...sorta sleep after breakfast,wake up then eat lucnh...self medicate myself with 2 febs tablet then pong...back to dreamland...and it was tv after waking up at bout 3+
waited for dinner!and dinner came lyk 4hrs latr?
and fuck...liverpool is 2-1 up...screw...which makes me even more bored
cya all...looking forward to next week where activities are all coming up!

hmm...sometimes you left me wondering...am i asking too much from you?or am i just a bugger or a stupid nuisance...i rmb i was there time and agn for you no matter how busy i was,no matter how late it was...the times u were bored and u needed entertainment...a night b4 my tests,or even hours b4 my make or break day during the A's...i tried to get everything done for you and make it nice and simple for you?am i just doing too much and expecting you to do the same or what?when i called you and needed some entertainment frm you,you just put my off by saying you are busy...not once but quite a few times...not only when i was in camp though...'busy' just seem to be your fav phrase...and i'm sure i was your listening ear for quite alot of times...cant you just be there at least a few times?gwah...forget it...

oh well...maybe i shd quit ranting and why the fuck am i ranting here?well...too bored at home and others are 'mia'?so yea...

2009-03-11T23:33:00.002+08:00

POP LOH!
haha...guess everyone's mine would be filled with that faithful phrase...after nine weeks,we are finally trained soldiers...went thru quite abit of shit,and a fair share of fun and even falling sick for some of us...i fell sick at the last few days too...but phew...recovered just in time for all the stuff (: fun stuff!
we partied with 2ic's fav food,and finally gave sgt pang his shirt,and chewed on popcorn too!so much so for our last night tgt...

oh yea...went out wif shihui few weeks back...was supposed to look for my polo tee and jeans...but well i got none of them and got myself a ds instead the next day...beat dat man!but thx to my kind sis who sponsored me the ds...well partly she's playing it alot more than me now...grrh...anyways...shihui who as accompanying me bought lyk uber alot of stuff...haha...and shopping for me 1st time since entering bmt seriously made me felt relieve cuz i still HAVE my bit of fashion sense...knowing wad to mix and wad not to mix with...actually i saw quite a nice jeans but i seriously prefered a smaller size one...so did not buy it...so bmt really makes you slim down wor!woots

anyways guess i shall stop here ba...shall type more when i'm bored during my block leave...
cya all!

2009-02-22T09:45:00.003+08:00

yo!guess you guys must be thinking i'm dead or lost in the wild...haha...nope i'm not!
did not have time to blog few weeks back and was confined for 12 days subsequently...hard training...seriously...hard training...
field camp was no joke...imagine having a wild boar sniffing your boots in the middle of ur slp...
cool right?haha...
well...was super tired past few weeks...but well bmt's ending soon which means my treat from ying is coming soon!definitely looking forward to POP and other stuff too...but well i think i may miss some of my section mates ba...yup...

2009-02-01T11:10:00.002+08:00

back from the sunny island once agn!woots!but well i'm leaving home tonight into the wilderness tonight!haha...tis time i mastered the art of not shitting already...did not shit a single time in camp k!but dats 3 days only la...so its only half the job done...but not shitting for 3 days resulted in my shitting 4 times w/in 30 hours...ehh...

saw hg in camp on fri after cutting hair!haha...chatted abit...chat too long both of us oso will get into some form of shit or another...lol...well he's probby at field camp now?not gonna go to roy's place latr cuz dey going in evening and well gonna book in at around 2000...so forget it lor...next year ba...hopefully?and i think alan's not gonna go too...
so if i go oso abit pntless,mixing wif pple i hardly speak to,watching a free show and etc...well...camp seems lyk a betta option at the end of the day cuz talking crap and shit with them is over so fun too i swear!

sat nite went out wif joei and ying!had my treat at yuki yaki!thx joei!hahaha...
well kinda sianed right now so i think lets go pack my sttuff and i think i shd keep quiet about some stuff...
cya all everyone...i will miss sleeping on a bed...gwah

2009-01-27T09:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
had a great chu yi ytd!yup...visited relatives and frens too...1st time visiting frens on chu yi though...haha...had bit of laughter and most of my male cousins shared their ns exp wif me...one even tempted me to try ocs...haha...abit hard leh...not dat i dun wan...

oh well...its gonna be back to camp soon!
cya everyone...i miss my itouch!

home's the best place to be

2009-01-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

home sweetest home!how much i miss home...so much so that i dreamt of home a night b4 i booked out...made much more frens inside and they are really great pple!haha...cant wait to go into camp becuz of them but yet abit dread going in cuz it is really sian

mood was dampened by a chicken pox carrier which caused such a big hoo-haa...but its juz chicken pox and it can be kept under control yo!gwah...nvm...shant tok bout tis since everything remained status quo...gonna go back to the island on chu er...gwah...

fri night was great cuz i finally went to chang k and it was my treat since i got my 1st pay on dat day...was wif joei,ying and pq...after dat they went to you che he wif pq's parents while i go home to rest...i'm seriously drained k...and yea i saw aaron,zixin,nat and julia at hub...small world i guess...

cny's coming but the mood's not exactly dere...gwah...juz join the motion ba!
happy new year everyone!cya soon!

NSman!

2009-01-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

woo!after 18+ years of living and walking on this land,seeing my cousins,frens and even neighbours migrating to the small island off shore at tekong...its FINALLY my turn in a few hours...
be a good army,serve my nation well...haha...yupyup...will try my best!
quite a busy day cuz was packing bags and entertaining some last minute stuff and most sickening of all had to pack my room!wth...haha...lyk i'm only away for 2 weeks and a few days la...haha...

well...nth much to say actually...real tired and feeling bit excited...maciam lyk the time i'm gonna go for my exams...the same kind of excitment yet huh...its here?!?!?!?!seems lyk my exams ended ytd and went out and meet up wif frens moments ago too...haha...of cuz not forgetting my memorable start to 2009!counting down in alan's lorry on the road!beat dat yo!sitting at the back too...
eh...joei!take good care of my itouch pls...and no one's gonna help u wif ur work anymore!haha...and u are still a sucker,blower,stone and pebble!anything but a rocker!tis statement goes to the next person as well...haha!
ying!take care of ur health?a big year ahead too!and plz STUDY!
wenx!perhaps during cny den a meal ba?
alan!dun drink until crazy anymore!hahaha...maybe next time it might be my turn?
shihui!stop being crazy!haha...
and to everyone take care
cya all folk!

be a good army...serve my nation!

2009-01-05T14:53:00.001+08:00

yah!my 1st post of the year!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
gonna say bye to most of the pple soon other than those coming in with me...haha...had a busy morning in the bank and oso buying some other ns stuff...well...its coming real soon...2 more days and i'm at a new place with greenery and see breeze...man...feeling tempted to join me?
haha...

cya all...guess a longer update tml after i'm done packing my stuff...yup (:

2008-12-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!i'm back...was fairly busy these days...really!lyk spending time playing rock band,moving my ass and playing pokemon(of all stuff)...it really killed LOTS of time k...so dat explained my disappearance from here too...

shall start from sat i guess...27th dec...
haha...quite an epic day man...cuz its the day dat my neighbour got F'ed by me...seriously...cant stand it man...and my...he really demonstrated what an asshole he is...shifting the problem away does not mean the problem is solved...ASSHOLE...dat was in the morning...noon went to dan's place and free rided on his ps3!!!!woots...but b4 dat we were watching 赤壁(Red Cliff) part 1...lol...and seriously its just the same as playing dynasty warrior lor...lol...after dat we started on ROCK BAND!haha...its cool yo!and dan forced me to be on the mic...so yea...sang crazy songs lyk the kill,all the small things,monsoon...but the kill is CRAZY...i nearly lost my voice becuz of it la...lol...then we Naruto'ed...lol...shocked by the new functions and stuff and its seriously much more fun than in the psp one la...and phew...i managed some frags at the end of the day...its my 1st time playing dat k...and i'm proud to say i nearly ko'ed dan...haha...playplayplay...seriously...time flies while we are having fun...its 8+PM when we decided to stop...went for prata in dan's dad's car at jalan kayu!woots!and went home...

sunday...kicked ball...but hell...i was wearing diff shoe for each foot k...left leg a black older series predator...right leg a david beckam predator which was white...lol...i swear i look odd...but gotta protect my bruised left toe...wad to do...lol...and yea alan visited me in his vehicle today!treated him to lunch too...he's a good driver man i swear

monday...its a pokemon day!pokemon'ed the whole day until i went jogging and my ocs neighbour was jogging too...so well...after my rounds...he was done too and we chatted abit...lol...yup...and yea he's gonna go little india to spend his new year...lol...wonder how would it be la...i would spend mine by watching football i guess...lol...and not forgeting the BBQ party!

tue...slackish day agn...until at night when joei,ying and me met up at hub to get bbq stuff and hell...rx not coming...wingyan too...sianed...BUT...shihui and et's coming!haha...hmm...dunno why...but keep thinking that i bought very little this time...haiz...wazzup wif me?perhaps no cups and stuff ba...den i keep thinking that its little?but lets pray i did not miss out on any thing...and after buying the stuff...alan...maciam some hero...drove his lorry and picked us up and sent us home...haha...at 1st we sat at the back of the lorry...wind blow damn shiok oso...haha...thx lao da!

cya all pple...goodbye 2008!

2008-12-26T15:08:00.002+08:00

goodbye christmas!yea!so happy dat x'mas ended...but well pple said dat there are 12 days of x'mas...of it's only the 2nd day right now...WADEVA!
pretty drained out for the earlier part of the week cuz i've been going out wif frens and seeing and hearing and also enduring stupid stuff away from home...i go out to relax and be away frm the mess i have to endure not becuz my hse sux but becuz of my dumb neighbour...well...lets not elaborate bout them but juz imagine dat their sewer got choke and how much shit and urine smell we've gotta endure...and oso their noise and they smoke in the toilet too...so it really smells lyk those lucky plaza washrooms...

mon...22nd dec...went to mr ong's hse!2nd time i think and the previous time i went dere was lyk 3 years ago...but woah...the hse still looks really new and the 'dentist lamp' is still dere...haha...and many hit their head against it la...i escaped though...haha...played mahjong...well i'm still in learning phase though...played cards too!(dats a totally diff story k)and oso worked my rusty brain with scrabble and oso a random mr ong tot us on the spot...well...its a good workout for the brain after a swim in the morning...but well...lets not elaborate more...mr ong treated us dinner!KFC and pizza hut!woots!ate till our fill definitely...but sad joei and rx cant eat much of the fried stuff...so well we ate them all!and zr was lyk a godzilla i swear...he ko'ed half the log cake by himself...reached home at bout 11+ i tink and was pretty tired already...and alan booked me for tue...lol

tue...well...went out wif alan and he still baika'ing la...and he's still wearing shoes lor...ai mei bu yao ming!haha...he bought a wallet for his sis i tink and i bought a pair of berms for myself...but still so much stuff i wanna buy but so so so so little time....haiz...was damn tiring squeezing wif pple at bugis street...and well the queue to buy stuff was oso quite crazy!man they shd expand the path to ease our passage ways...GWAH!and hell during lunch i met an auntie dat's so knnbccb...got a little bit of money very big meh?order ok already juz go back la...what nid receipt and stuff...pple do business so many years sure wont forget wad u order one la...idiot...holding up pple and i did carry quite an empty stomach...i swear i too resist the temptation to tell her to shuddap and go back to her seat and juz believe in them...well...i did dream of dat auntie at night!and tis time i had a reason to scold her!she stole me table at the coffeeshop...haha...i walked over to her banged the table and unleased those words...hahaha
seba came over at evening to take my uniform...he dined at my place too

wed...was x'mas eve...packed my wardrobe...lyk FINALLY...sacked LOTS of clothes too...those OLD,OVERSIZED ones were kicked out...muhaha...more space for MORE!decided to idle at home oso...i'm juz not a x'mas person...despite joei,yy and pq called me to go chang k i did not budge even though i really wanted to chang k...lol...

thur...well...to some it's christmas...to me its juz another day...juz dat at night go my uncle's place for a mini x'mas party...well...nth much dere too...so juz skip it ba...

new year's coming!gotta go shop for the bbq stuff on 30th!hope can force alan to drive me and the stuff home...muhahaha!

cya all on 31st!

IT'S CHRISTMAS

2008-12-25T16:21:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
i'm lazy to blog right now...maybe tml (:
well...i'm just not a christmas person

cya all!

brothers reunite...alliance reformed

2008-12-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

hey all...i'm back...after awhile i guess...but its better compared to SOME who disappear for a month or maybe 2?lol...pretty much happened passed for days and was feeling really tired today but still met up wif the bros nonetheless and i'm glad i did...was vulgar and hell lots of fun...haha...had a good week no matter was it wif frens or working out and i finally went to collect my old specs...had to upgrade the power...sadded...and i visited the lib and borrowed books ok!i shd start reading soon...

fri...well actually planned to stay home actually but hell...quite suddenly i found myself at chinses gardens wif seba...cuz dan was there...as an intern...and was damn shiok for him can...one person one office...and he can slack,sleep,play and do wadeva he wans la...lyk watch naruto,bleach and wad not and even play the naruto version of little fighers...so yea...we played in his office...great yea?work place turned play ground...and of cuz we did not go chinese gardens for nothing can...we rode in the buggy dat dan drove...and hell he's got quite a bit of skill...budden...its juz press accelerator or break and stir the wheel nia lor...lol...abit of feel can noe liao la...lol...we drove around there...haha...some pple only walked 1/8 of the garden while we completed one round already!we drove round the chinese gardens,den went to japanese gardens and woah...really got the japanese wind and stuff...the struture and landscape...haha...after dat we went to the bonzai garden and hell...the bonzais really amazed me...i swear...big plants and small plants all trimmed to near PERFECTION...lol...all were damn round la...and they have tis plant which they trimmed to make it look lyk a lion...of cuz wif some eye decoration la...but seba say it does not look lyk one...i tink it looks lyk leh...and well...no picts for above...neva bring camera...lol...and even if i had photos i would be too lazy to post them too...and we went to the entrance of the tortise and turtles garden...but hell...GOTTA PAY TO GET IN!?!?!?!?
wah lao eh...!*&^%$^&%&%^^&(* and wad not k...its juz turtles and tortises...so wad they are big and enter some world record thing?very amazing meh?gwah...anyways...i noe its vital to spend to keep the economy going...but not on tortises and turtles...perhaps national geographic can cure my itch if i ever wanna catch some...lol...and yea...dan knocked off after our adventure over there...and did i tell u?dan is a RECKLESS driver...haha...nearly bumped into tress k...and we hit a tree branch and were kinda semi covered in leaves...lol
drink...dun drive...drive...dun drink...hahaha
after dat went to citylink to meet up wif norine and then roy and had dinner...well...roy had his dinner already and well...he was basically quite jibye and so did i...and we kinda predicted lao da's future oso...lol...after dinner...roy and i walked around at msq...well seba song norine off...and hell of all pple...saw robert...our ogl...lol...much dreaded one though...well...was caught in a survey at suntec and well...roy...too bad la...u really look too much lyk a M.oh yea...we were caught in the middle of a grp of them too...gwah...noisy,rowdy,lazy...
well after everything caught mr ong's(keyelements) performance outside esplanade...not too bad la...lol...the their bass is GODLIKE if not GODLY!i love their 一人一半...haha...was really nice...esp the start hokkien part...guess mr ong's really a lao hokkien...he got those fu jian ying lyk those taiwan show's song liddat...lol
and after dat...catched up wif hg too...been really long since we caught up...but that dan got stuck in a hse warming party...he was supposed to come ok!gwah...and really lor...wif dan the power quintet would be present la...lol...maybe we could challenge the keyelements too!lol...i'm dreaming...and wah...they(keyelements) had some new tricks too!lyk getting the crowd involve and made us sang...and hell...mr ong was looking at us(seba,roy and me)...i swear...lol...heng my voice box still can make it...lol
and home we went after getting an extra small coke frm mac...lol...and seriously...its a trend to drink an extra small drink now...

gwah...damn tired already and i woke up in quite a bad mood today...probby due to not enuff sleep cuz my fantastic neighbours were chatting...i swear they are in for a big one the next time they disturbed me frm my sleep...
Thou who hath messed up my lala land shan't escape the wrath of a grumpy one
and damn joei!make me wanna shop when i tot of not shopping for the coming year's cny...but anyway...i'm gonna sack all my old clothes soon!woots

cya all soon!

Beliefs

2008-12-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

belief...i have strong beliefs...do you?
self belief...i guess is the most impt to me...when everyone walked out on you...when u are alone...u just have to dig in deeper to crawl up higher...u juz gotta step up to get out...i have strong self belief...and of cuz...i did have other belief...until recently where it was washed out...and corroded by pple who shared that common believed...i saw them rotten,gone crazy,did ridiculously wrong stuff and might claim dat he's doing the 'right' thing...well...to sum it up...it's juz crazy...and i really wanna ask some do you noe what you are believing in?
but seriously...i do have friends dat are really deeprooted into the belief...and they definitely grow frm strength to strength...and i sincerly wish and hope dat they will grow even more and allow me to have faith in order to believe in the belief...if not...it's seriously self belief gonna lead my way...

went out wif lao da today...lunched and walked around wif him at well...amk hub...lol...no money liao la...saw the shoes i wanted...65 bucks...hmm...maybe use my 1st pay to buy it?but hell...i got a pair of shoes to bust first...and hmm...lao da's gonna buy a ps3...i swear i will move in to his hse to play la...lol
well...i dunno wads wrong wif her...seriously...u might have gone head over heels or perhaps even more lyk finding the eighth heaven or something...lyk...u dun lyk a person oso muz have a limit and oso muz be sensitive to the person wad...gwah...i guess u made my lose the belief too...
well...losing some...gaining some...

2008-12-15T20:39:00.004+08:00

screw...i really hate my neighbours...i swear...more than anything...seriously...if i could i would just chase them away or something or make them disappear from my neighbourhood...making them disappear from the face of the earth might be abit too much la...abit?haha...

imagine...for three consecutive days you were awaken by the horrendous mumbling...at 5am while washing their clothes...damn...why dun u things just dump your clothes into the washing machine and scram from the back and keep the dawn peaceful,instead of sitting down at back and chatting...hell...it's irritating even though its soft...and it disturbs me frm my precious sleep...it does not help dat i'm burning and chionging everyday and i dun have proper rest...hell...oh...and i did scream at them with a few variations of 'can u shuddap'...i varied the languages too...but hell...tis morning...i swear...even screaming does not help...their washing machine WAS a goner...gone...spoilt...habis...rosak...bwang...destroyed by them...i swear they are washing clothes lyk from 4+am in the morning till 11PM at NIGHT...anything oso will break down in the long run la...the machine was making so much noise...and as usual...it disturbed my 'shao ye' sleep...but hell...its a washing machine...u dun shout at it to make it shuddap...its a...dead thing?well...could have shouted at the pple...but well...forget it la...wait 1 or 2 days and see how they deal wif it then counter lor...

rotted at home on sat...watched scrolls and scrolls of anime...but i might be going lib soon (: go borrow 2 or 3 books to read abit...if not i'm getting DUMB...i swear i cant hold a pen properly anymore...was quite peaceful at night too...watched a match...and then msn'ed till 12+ but hell the night was spoilt by some guy who tried to assume on past knowlegde and stuff...hell...pple do change...and lets not make an ASS out of U and imptly or maybe not so imptly ME...cuz u do dat...u will fail...and fail MISERABLY...assume...find means to confirm...then act...chances of success would be higher...not a foolproof plan...guess i'm trying my part to erase idiocy...no such word as idiocracy though...

sun...was original a peaceful rotting day...i wonder how long is my halflife...lol...and well...my aunt decided to come my hse awhile b4 going my ah ma's place...and well she's gonna go china to visit my cousin...he's working there as a manager or something...cant rmb la...and she gave me a hongbao too...not an early cny one can...i'm still GONNA come out during cny k...lol...well she gave me one to let me shun shun in NS...haha...yupyup...7th jan...not very much to go...oso not so near to me yet...so enjoy,keep fit,meet up wif frens,play ball and ANIMES!
alright...here comes a little bit of twister...got a call from seba and poof off i went to lucky plaza to play pool...i swear i suck at it...at times i did not win the game...yet roy/seba lost it...thus i kinda 'won'...and hell the bombshell was dropped...drastic changes among agn...but well...i guess the grp's time abt up too...i dun think i will be bothered to do anything oso la...small grp outings not so bad afterall too...dine wif both of them and val tan...guess she just ended her paino classes...and heard one stories from her 'students' too...well...real ridiculous lor...considering shd i go to roy's place coming sat...and haha...4 of us talked bout old days of peirce and cursing some pple as well...well...i've bossed that campus for 4 years and you guys are still considered a newbie yea?i noe more pple in that sch...i left more marks on tables,chairs,walls,grass,bball court and hell EVERYWHERE...i even drank coffee wif richard b4...my mark's there too...lol...so show us some respect...wah lao eh...

mon...GYMed wif a freaaak...and jogged lyk a thousand miles...though its lyk only 10km...hell...i'm damn tired now...lets rest and let fate arrange wazzup tml!

day out

2008-12-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

ha!i'm out of my hse today lyk FINALLY...
met up wif shihui(aka idiot)...lol...hmm...went around eating,window shop a little...but she bought quite a bit of stuff for her ballet kids...stickers and woah...i was wowed by the selection of stickers and hell...dora?huh...who's that?my peirce sch mate?lol...and the thing she bought to catch the attention of the kids is juz so cute la...lol...
but well...dats kinda her 2nd choice la...cuz the 1st thing she tried did not work on a few kids there...lol...but was fun out wif her la...my schmate for 13 years...sounds long...but seriously...does not really feel that long...its fast...really...thinking back now...frm a kid who noes nth in pri sch...to some guy in peirce and to yj...now cant believe dat i'm gonna go ns lyk...SOON!

after meeting up wif her...went back amk to meet wanching...travelled to suntec to 'buy' joei's present...lol...and intro her to shokudo and of cuz dined at dere...haha...i swear we were uber lucky...after we went in there was lyk 394329403460436049 pple waiting outside...chatted abit and letf for home...

today...agn...saw a few yj pple a peirce person...small world?or maybe i noe alot of pple?lol
saw tis beautiful sentence at soccernet.com...felt dat hey its nice...decided to post it here
"The president talks a lot and acts little, the sporting director cries a lot and signs few players, the players earn a lot but don't play much and the medical staff treat many but cure few."
haha...nice to me (:

cant wait for next week!i'm going vivo lyk FINALLY

new specs!

2008-12-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

hello!i'm back here agn!
juz to annouce to the world dat i got me new specs...woots...
well...boring day today...juz rotted for rather long hours and came here to kill some time...changed to a normal template though and hope can get my chatbox up soon...
goodbye (:

I'm here!

2008-12-08T00:38:00.002+08:00

hello to world...since its my virgin post over here...just gonna keep it short and sweet...hahaha...
thx to yingg who pushed me to create tis bloggie...but hell...i'm gonna go ns on jan 7th?so i guess tis place be be cold as ever?
but will try my best to update when i'm on this sunny island before i go enjoy the greenery and seabreeze in tekong...muhaha...

cya all soon!